Today, I am sharing with you my delivery story. Let me first say, that I know every situation is different and I am talking from my own experience which comes from its own set of vulnerabilities. I have to say at the beginning I did not want to open up about being pregnant publicly. As I mentioned before, I wanted to have a baby for a long time and when it finally became a reality, I wanted to enjoy the process in private with my family. It was really hard to do because I work on TV and it is hard to keep a secret like that in front of the camera 😉 . In any case, I finally opened up about it around month 5 and I received a lot of love in this beautiful moment of my life. I want to take the opportunity to say thank you to those of you that have been really nice with me and my baby boy!
Yet, I was still afraid. I had in my mind the unfortunate event of my sister-in-law who has passed away after she delivered my second niece via c-section. It is a feeling that never goes away, and really becomes something you quite never understand. I think of her very much of how traumatic it was for all of us when it happened, so naturally, I knew having a baby was no joke. I also had had another surgery to remove my endometriosis condition and I was not allowed to have a natural birth. I only had the c-section surgery option and I wanted to be as careful as possible to be prepared for this day.
Needless to say, I love martial arts, and I consider myself a strong woman. However, on this day with all of this in mind, I have to confess something!!! I WAS CRAPPING MY PANTS!!!. During my pregnancy, I had a few incidents I never talked about. I had a one-car accident with three other cars when I was 6 months old, we had another car hitting us from the back two weeks before delivery and I felt my house’s stairs one week before delivery. Those incidents were scary and honestly did not want anything else to happen. Fortunately, in all these instances the impact was subtle, I had no concussion. With that said, can you imagine how things like this can get in your head?
Yet, I tried to remain calm and relaxed. Did I say my husband was also nervous? I can’t tell if he was afraid of blood, and needles, or just the experience, but let me tell you he put on a performance for me. I remember being in the surgery room with him and he was playing a video we love about Hawaii which was a very special trip we did. It really helped me to calm down a lot. A funny moment I remember was that I could see the lamp on top of the surgery table and I could see my big naked belly reflection on it ;). I asked the doctor if they were going to put something on top to cover up my sight, so I could not see and they said if I wanted to see the baby come up in the lamp reflection. Could you imagine me with all I had in my mind watching how they open me to take out my son? I, of course, said no, but you know what, now I wish I had not said anything, and experience that moment. I guess I was afraid to really panic in there, so maybe for next time I will be brave and get some popcorn while I watch.
The surgery was fast, after they fixed the blanket to cover the lamp view, so I could not see, they say, we will be done in 10 minutes here. They quickly did their thing and I felt movement and pushing when they said we are going to count and you will feel a huge weight for five seconds. Next thing I know, my son was out of the belly, I heard him crying and they said they were checking him first for vital signs. He was yelling so much he had no oxygen at the ideal level and they had to take him to emergency care. I was not happy because I could not see him more than a few seconds. I am sharing with you the photos when I was finally able to hold him the next day, he was already free of the cables he had before giving him the oxygen he needed to reach the normal levels babies need. I was so happy to be with him. It feels so weird looking at him because I think he was looking at me like mom where the heck were you. I cried and cried and could not believe I had a son. At least, that is how I felt. I have to say I was the happiest and most blessed woman in the world. I just could not believe I had created him, I could not believe I was going to take care of him for the rest of my life. I could not believe God showed me once more time HE exists by showing me this miracle of love. In these photos, I am the most vulnerable, and most definitely no TV perfect, but guess what, I could not care any less!
Love you guys!
