Lindo viernes mis amorcitos! Como estan! Yo volviendo con ustedes despues unas vacacioncitas bien merecidas y quizas las ultimas por un buen tiempo. Muy feliz de compartirles este blog post en visperas del dia de nuestras Madres hermosas que celebramos. Y como ya saben me incluyo en la lista ya que tambien voy a ser mamita por primera vez! Muy contenta de poder celebrar este dia en el que me incluyo ya que tengo un milagrito de Dios en mi vientre aunque todavia no haya nacido. Se que para muchos ha sido una gran sorpresa ya que no lo habia anunciado antes, pero la verdad es que hay cosas muy privadas como esta que necesitaba vivir yo solita y experimentarlas sin tener a el mundo observandome. Pero que les puedo decir ya se me notaba y no lo podia ocultar mas. Tambien considerando lo sensible de este tema para mi.
Gran parte de mi vida senti que mi meta en la vida debia ser trabajar en mi y obtener la major cantidad de titulos profesionales posibles y gozar la vida al maximo lo cual fue algo que ni mami ni mi abuelita hicieron ya que se la han pasado trabajando para nuestra familia de sol a sol. Asi que en mi mente la idea de tener un bebe no era les confieso mi prioridad. Sin embargo unos cuatro años atrás, despues de muchos dolores en mi periodo hasta el punto de no poder caminar fui al doctor a ver que tenia. Para mi sorpresa me encontraron varias bolitas en mis ovarios y en todo mi sistema reproductor y mi diagnosticaron con Endometriosis a un nivel muy fuerte. Me dijeron que basicamente era como una telaraña que complicaba cualquier posibilidad de quedar en embarazo en el futuro. La recomendación que hicieron fue ser operada para remover la mayor cantidad posible y quitarme las bolitas que tenia que eran como 8 limoncitos en mi sistema mas todos los años en los cuales esta telaraña habia crecido y tenian que removerla. Cuando me dijeron esto me puse muy triste con esta noticia. Hasta ese dia la idea de tener hijos estaba alli pero era lejana con todos mis planes y projectos que tenia primero por realizar, pero que te digan que quizas no puedas ser mama es otra historia. Me di cuenta que al operarme las probabilidades mejorarian por un tiempo, pero nada era garantizado. Y ese dia decidi que todo lo demas era secundario y ser mama era algo que si queria vivir en mi paso por esta vida antes de que fuera muy tarde. Asi que me opere y despues de una cirugia muy larga y recuperacion corta pero dolorosa y con la esperanza de que todo iba a funcionar aquí estoy cuatro años despues contandoles de mi milagrito.
Quizas sea mucha information pero pienso que quizas alguna persona la puede ayudar o motivar a no perder la Fe por lo que sea que este pasando. En este momento que les escribo mi barriquita se esta moviendo y mi retoñito me da pataditas que no saben que lindo se siente. Lo unico que puedo decir es que no me cambio por nadie. Y solo le pido a mi Dios todos los dias que me guie y le de mucha salud a mi milagrito que viene en camino. Gracias a todos por el carino, y el amor que me han brindado significa mucho para mi sobre todo aun mas ahora que saben por lo que he pasado. La proxima semana les contare como ha sido este proceso jaja se van a reir de mi. Por lo pronto les digo que quieran mucho a sus mamitas yo lo que he vivido me ha dado un par de buenas lecciones y un amor aun mas inmenso y agradecido por ellas. Les mando un besote, mis energias positivas y por cierto no se desanimen que los bailes vienen porque vienen! Besote Gigante! Los amo!
A Complete Mamacita
Happy Friday, my loves How are you! I come back with my blog post after a few weeks of a well-deserved vacation and maybe the last ones for a good while. Very happy to share this blog post on the eve of our beautiful Mother’s Day Celebration. As you know, I include myself in the list because I am going to be a mom for the first time! Very happy to celebrate this day just because I have a little miracle of God in my womb even though he/she has not been born yet. I know that for many it has been a great surprise since I had not announced it before, but the truth is that there are very private things like this I needed to enjoy alone and experience it without having the world watching me. However, I got to the point where I am showing and well, well I cannot hide it anymore. Especially considering how sensitive this topic is to me.
A huge part of my life, I felt that my achievements should be to work hard on myself and get the as many professional titles as possible, so I could enjoy a better quality of life. My mom and grandma spent their lives working for our family and could not finish their education, and I saw how life was harder for them. As a result, in my mind, the idea of having a baby was not my priority. However about four years ago, everything changed. After many painful menstrual periods in which it hurt to even walk, I went to the doctor to see what my problem was. To my surprise, they found several small balls in my ovaries and in my entire reproductive system. I was diagnosed with Endometriosis at a very advanced level. They told me that it was like a spider web that complicated any possibility of becoming pregnant in the future. The recommendation they made was to be operated to remove as much as possible and get rid of the balls that were like eight small limes and getting rid of all the years in which this web had grown exponentially, so they could remove it. When they told me this, I became very sad with the news. Until that day, the idea of having children was there but it was far away. I had all my plans and projects that in my mind I had to complete first. However, when they tell you that maybe you cannot be a mother is another whole level. I realized that by having the surgery, the odds of getting pregnant would improve for a while, but nothing was guaranteed. On that day, I decided that everything else was secondary in my life and being a mom was something that I wanted to be before it was too late. So, guess what! I went ahead with the operation despite any adverse impact I could get from it and after a very long surgery and short but painful recovery, I am here four years later telling you about my little miracle!
Maybe it is a lot of information but maybe someone out there will feel motivated by my testimony to NOT lose FAITH in whatever you are going through right now! At this moment, I am writing you, my little one is moving and kicking me, and I just love it. The only thing I can say is I do not want to be anyone else at this moment. I only ask my God every day to guide me and give me a bundle of joy health. Thank you all for the love, it means a lot to me especially after all I have gone through. Next week, I will tell you how this process has been, Jajaja you will laugh at me. For the moment, I tell you to love and spoil your mothers!!! I now have an even bigger love and gratitude for them. Sending you a big kiss, my positive energies and certainly do not get discouraged because my dancing will come sooner than you think! Giant Kisses! Love you!
Photography by @Wilder Aranibar
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